Why did this happen to me?

Before the events of the past week, this would have been the only thing going through my mind.  The words, “this isn’t fair” would have been said over and over and over again.  I would be sitting here focusing on pain, upset, victimizing my situation. 


I am ALIVE in Jesus, and I truly and wholeheartedly know what that means.  As soon as the words “I’m scared” came from my mouth yesterday to my mom,  I instantly changed that.  No, I’m not scared.  Fear is from the devil.  I am alive in Christ.  He strengthens me.  He strengthens me in ways far beyond my imagination, he carries me, how can I be doing these things that most women cannot do?  He does it for me. How is my family making it through these trying times?  He does it for us. 

I am alive.  I know how true of a blessing it is to be able to say that, and to be able to let Jesus carry me is absolutely the most wonderful and freeing experience of my life.  I said that before, but I didn’t know how it was.  I was still bogged down by the attacks of satan, by self-pity, by envy of an easier situation.  Something stressful would happen, and I would say, how am I going to get through this?  It would make me angry to be even more tired, wore out, and have even more on my plate.

Now I say, I CAN do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  And I believe those words truer than anything else.
Grace Magnolia Ruth entered this world on March 1.  Our journey has been interesting……

6 thoughts on “Why did this happen to me?

  1. Kisha, I don't know the details of this past week, but you and your family will be in my prayers for peace and healing.

    Your little one is beautiful…

    Thinking of you,
    Susan, up the road


  2. I told you God never gives you more than you can handle. Many times we question our strength but God knows how truly strong we are. You are never alone to walk thru the good or the bad times. I had and somedays still do wonder how can I make things better for you, I don't know what to do and I too was scared but with God's grace and strength we did, can and will get thru it. Love You


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